Previously…

I mentioned previously that I’ve been dealing with an ongoing frustration with broken promises. Tonight was a clear confirmation that nothing WILL ever change for me; tonight I am just as rooted in square one just as any other day. I think its such a big issue to feel as if you are doing so much but left without any sort of progress to show for all your hard work. For it to be ongoing is just extremely torturous. Surely, I should’ve been used to it by now except that all my hopes and dreams continue to keep me optimistic. Naive is actually a better definition for the ignorance towards my reality. I seriously push and push to get out of this “box” I call community college. I’ve essentially plateaued in my educational career and I’m seeking better opportunities; I’m unfortunately unsuccessful in the matter. I’m not sure if my parents understand the magnitude of frustration and stress that I endure, especially since they continue to undermine my performance and let my accomplishments go unnoticed. I pray to God that I could get into a program this year and every year that I am rejected from every school I applied to, I am burdened with the responsibility of redirecting my path and reevaluating the perspective opportunities. “She” promised that she would help me pay for school, without question. Yet when it came down to it, it was all too much for her to handle. So there we have it, back here in square one. Another year to waste and redirect my dwindling passion. I have fallen yet again, weirdly enough, I am eager to get back up again. Sure, I get older by the year, but maybe that is my lesson from God - that age or whatever, doesn’t dictate when a person is obligated to such success. I don’t know….part of me is extremely depressed, but another clings to a minute source of hope. I think my strategy is to get away from this life already and maybe relocate away from here. 

posted : Sunday, May 27th, 2012

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I have to say this made my morning! “Im a Star!”

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posted : Saturday, May 26th, 2012

reblogged from : You said to "be cool" but I'm already coolest.

posted : Saturday, May 19th, 2012

Once again…

I’m feeling that disappointment and feeling of being trapped. Essentially, I am trapped in a weird way. As strong as I perceive myself to be, I am always just as helpless. It’s not by choice either, I’m just a victim of circumstance. Oh how life leads way onto way and how circumstance turns to obstacles. I try to hard to excel and keep on track, yet here’s one obstacle after the other. I had promises for help, but in the end, I’m only helping myself. When is it gonna stop? These promises for help and promises to give me what I need, but when it comes down to it, I’m all on my own…

I enrolled in Kaplan with the notion that I was going to get help paying for school. Somehow, the loan ended up in my name and it’s MY pell grant that’s going to pay for the out-of-pocket expenses. So now I have to get a job to pay for things while I’m in school instead of relying on my pell grant for my monthly expenses. I honestly fight myself every second of the day to just accept that this is where I’m gonna end up and that maybe this is what God thinks I deserve, but why am I not happy with the way things are turning out. I thought God did what’s best for us with our happiness in mind. I’m just so tired of dealing with money and the stress of having to work or go to school to make it in this world. I wanna just be a bum and do nothing. I’m so freaking exhausted with everything I’m so damn depressed that I just want to sleep all day and live within the figment of my own dreams… If only…

posted : Thursday, May 17th, 2012

thefluffingtonpost:

TSA Reverses Rule on Carry-On Dogs
Someone at the TSA must love dogs.  According to a press release, the TSA has changed its long-standing rule that all carry-on dogs must be removed from their traveling cases when put through security scanners.  The new rule, says the TSA, allows for dogs weighing under 18 pounds to pass through security without being removed from luggage.
Unfortunately, cats must still be unpacked for all airport security checkpoints.
Via jorryanz.

thefluffingtonpost:

TSA Reverses Rule on Carry-On Dogs

Someone at the TSA must love dogs.  According to a press release, the TSA has changed its long-standing rule that all carry-on dogs must be removed from their traveling cases when put through security scanners.  The new rule, says the TSA, allows for dogs weighing under 18 pounds to pass through security without being removed from luggage.

Unfortunately, cats must still be unpacked for all airport security checkpoints.

Via jorryanz.

posted : Sunday, May 13th, 2012

reblogged from : The Fluffington Post

p0kesmot420:

Reblog because my mom raps in this. 

coolest mom ever!

posted : Friday, May 11th, 2012

reblogged from : Kill Off All The Zombies.

“ I think same sex couples should be able to get married.
— Barack Obama (via newsweek)

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posted : Wednesday, May 9th, 2012

reblogged from : Sup

oh myy…i had to reblog

oh myy…i had to reblog

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posted : Wednesday, May 9th, 2012

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Here and Now

Nearing the end of my scholarly path (in community college), I’ve noticed that school & all such things has made me a little socially isolated. Hence, the reason why my social life has literally been replaced with an obsession over immensely adorable puppies. But alas, such will no longer occur for I have decided its time to maintain a delicate balance between school and social mores. I’m not saying I’m going to party every night and get white girl wasted without any premise for celebration, but I will however request that I am in the good company of friends at least once or twice a week. Is that too much to ask considering my devout devotion to my education?

posted : Monday, May 7th, 2012

SHE is STILL my Favorite!

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posted : Tuesday, May 1st, 2012

reblogged from : Emotions Unrated